This post is long – very long, actually. It’s the longest I’ve
written. But that’s appropriate given the content
and the message. I hope you’ll
read the entire post, and really take the message in as I think it can
help. I posted the essence to a running
group I’m part of online, and the number of responses that came
in almost instantly shows me how many people are out there thinking the way I
was, and how much this message can help. It’s about persevering
beyond your self-doubt to find a place where you achieve and grow.
On a recent business trip to London, I was going to get a
chance to run with a coworker (Bill) who has done some very long races relative
to the kind of mileage I put in (half marathon, Ragnar Ultra Marathon
Relay). We were talking about running
along the River Thames together, which I love to do, but he was thinking of
nothing major – just five miles or so.
The longest I had run was 4.2 miles, and I tore the lateral meniscus in
my left knee on that run. Since my knee
surgery, the longest I had gone was 3.8 miles.
I had Bill beat speed-wise (or at least according to the
self-deprecating pace he claimed to run at) by quite a margin, so I told myself
going so much slower should make it ok.
I got to London a few days before Bill, so I decided I best
give the distance a try. I suited up as
soon as I landed, having flown in on a Sunday.
With my compression socks pulled high and my big hand bottle filled up,
I took to the Thames Path (some of the best running in a city you could
imagine).
With a 5K race coming up, I figured I needed to at least
pull off a 5K around my goal pace (aiming for sub-25 minutes), but anything
beyond that was gravy, and I wasn’t sure I could do
it. It was very crowded on the path, so
I got some good training on dodging and weaving, which I’m
sure I’ll need for my upcoming race. If you’re familiar with the
Thames, I started at Tower Bridge across from Butler’s
Wharf, crossed the river, and ran out through More London by City Hall toward The
Eye, passing The Globe Theater and The Tate Modern along the way. It’s really a great run.
I definitely had to push myself. I figured it was because I had just come off
a seven-hour flight and had been feeling sick for the past week.
I ran to the landmark he had mentioned for a there-and-back
route (the London Eye, which is about 2.7 miles from our hotel). I didn’t quite go all the way,
and turned at 2.35 miles.
I was surprised at how fresh I was feeling – fresher than I
had felt at the first mile. My pace was
about 7’40”, which was well under my target
pace. Good stuff.
The run continued with me crossing to the other side of the
river, crossing on the Millennium foot-bridge.
Coming back on the other side is a mix of running along the river and
having to break back into the city for a block or two as the path isn’t
as direct as it is on the side I ran out on.
As I crossed the 5K mark, my pace was still sub-8, and I
felt really good, but had developed a blister on my right foot that was really
starting to bother me. Despite that, I
found some other runners, reeled ‘em in, and left ‘em
behind. I had to stop a couple of times
to adjust my shoe to deal with my blister, so some of my victims overtook
me. Momentarily. I found them all again, and got my kills
back. Awesome.
I really cooked a few times, getting my pace down below 7’
for some 200-800 repeats, and felt great (aside from my blister). I came back to my hotel at 4.6 miles – a new
record distance for me. But it wasn’t
enough – I had more in the tank, and needed to know I could do five before I
risked humiliation in front of a coworker.
I basically ran back and forth in front of the hotel with my arm up so I
could see my GPS watch until I hit five.
Slap the wrist and I’m done. Wow.
I expected that to be my long run before Thursday when this
guy and I were going to run again, and then that
would be my long run for months to come.
I was right about the first part, but not the second.
On that run with Bill, he took off at 5:20am at a pace in
the low 7s. So much for his claim to run
9-10’ miles! I was
definitely working at it to keep up. He
insisted he’d be running out of steam soon, which he did, but never
down to the 9s or 10s he claimed to run.
We settled in the low 8s, which I’m very comfortable
at. The first two miles took some work
to keep sticking at – I could hear a voice inside saying, “It’s
cool if you have to tell Bill you’re going to turn and head
back. It’s ok if you’re not feeling it today.
He’s a good guy. Don’t worry, just turn
around. And it’s ok to stop and take a breather.
He’s cool with it.” The thing is, it’s
the same voice I heard the whole first half of the run on Sunday, and that I
tend to hear during my entire 2-3.5 milers, which is my typical distance. As our pace settled and I warmed up, we
started talking more, so I couldn’t hear the voice so
much. Suddenly, we reached The Eye
before I knew it, and I realized I was feeling really good. I had done a lot of first aid on my foot
since Sunday, so my blister wasn’t an issue. I was just feeling on top of my game all
around.
And then it happened.
Only this time, ‘It’ was nothing. No pain. No tiring out. No negative inner
voice. I was in a zone I’d
never experienced before when running. It’s like I had gotten past
some initial wall of mental traffic, and was suddenly cruising on an open
freeway with a huge grin on my entire body.
Call it Flow, call it The Zone, call it a runner’s
high, call it whatever. I had hit a
place where endurance wasn’t an issue. I had hit a place where my body and my mind
were in perfect sync, and both feeding off each other to the other’s
benefit. It was awesome.
I posted this in a running group I'm part of on Facebook, and got a response on the medical reasons for this:
I posted this in a running group I'm part of on Facebook, and got a response on the medical reasons for this:
And here’s the medical explanation…it’s ultimately about when your brain reads the signals that things need to change in how it’s dictating your systems and then how long before your body catches up given the deficit that’s built while your brain was ‘waking up’ to reality
We did 6.15 miles without realizing it. I wish I knew so we could have made it a 10K
(a quick run around the hotel would have been more than enough to get to 6.2
miles). The thing is, I really could
have kept going. I wish I did – I
honestly think I could have done 10 miles with the time I still had. I ended up going to the hotel gym and doing
35 minutes on the elliptical, so I know I could have put in another 3-4 miles.
We emailed back and forth a bit, and I said we should do it
again Friday. I had to leave for the
airport at 8, so I’d be up by 4, and would be game
to hit it as soon as the sun came up (5:06am sunrise). He emailed me at 5 to say he wasn’t
up for it after a late night business dinner. I was bummed because I enjoyed
his company, I wanted to show Bill the other side of the river (he’s
never run by More London and wasn’t sure how to get to the
other side, which can honestly be tricky with various stairs and some points
where you have to go out a bit from the path to get back into it – at least to
dumb Americans like me and him). I was
also bummed because I was afraid that my ability in the back half of the run
came from Bill being there to push me and take my mind off things. I had decided to run music-free this week, so
I nervous about getting caught in my head too much. I also had a really bad pain between my third
and fourth met on my left foot.
I set out at 5:15am, crossed Tower Bridge, and told myself I
needed to press to The Eye no matter what.
I had a plan for what to cover to get over six miles, and wanted to do
seven. My foot hurt, but I didn’t
feel it as much if I focused on keeping my foot strong when I landed.
Sure enough, the first couple of miles were tough – not
quite as tough as they had been on Sunday or with Bill the day before, but
tough. My foot hurt. I was running slower on purpose because I was
a little nervous about sparking an injury since I have a race coming up in two
weeks and I did just run longer than I had ever run a mere 24 hours
earlier. I was in the 8’45”
range, but actually decided not to look at my watch and just be a bit more
disconnected. I wanted to take things in
– no music, no stressing the numbers, just enjoying the scenery and the run.
Next thing I know, I’m at The Eye, and a
little bummed and want to run out past it.
I decided that wasn’t wise since a) it’s
about three miles back, which could be tough if I was injured, b) I didn’t
have time to walk back if I was injured or I’d be late for my flight
home, c) I had no money, Tube pass or credit cards to buy my way back if I
couldn’t run, and d) I wanted to run past Tower Bridge to Butler’s
Wharf so I wanted to keep a little gas in the tank for that extra bit before
heading back to the hotel. I turned, and
started back.
My foot hurt, but that was it. I had no problem otherwise. I
actually had to remind myself that I need to be careful of my foot since my
gait is probably off due to the pain when my left foot strikes, so I could
injure something else or get some new blister.
I kept going anyway, and my mind and body were in that zone again – even
when my foot sent sharp pains through my body.
I’ll admit my forefoot strike that I’m
so proud of digressed into heel striking about 40% of the time to stay off
those mets, but I kept going.
I came charging across Tower Bridge in the 7s, and started
really pumping my arms to finish. Slap
the watch, and look down. I had just
crossed the 10K mark, which was awesome, but I was expecting my distance to
start with a 7. I decided I needed to do
a cool down run, so I ran in the 9s around St. Katherine’s
Dock (which is a beautiful little area), putting in another 0.68 on top of the
6.3 I had already clocked. If only I
knew I was .02 miles off from officially hitting seven rather than rounding to
seven. And my body and mind were still
synced up, so that leisure pace dropped down into the 7s again – I couldn’t
help myself.
I realized what was happening. Biologically, there are reasons why I needed
a warm up to get my body flowing, but mentally, I needed just a touch more
distance, and then it was a light switch flick reaction. Now that I’ve run past that place of
doubt rather than always taking it as a sign that something is likely wrong and
I need to stop – that is, interpreting it from a pessimistic and fearful
perspective – I’ve allowed my mind to
unlock. What I’ve
found on the other side of that door is amazing. Putting specific pains aside (blisters, met
pain, etc), I literally feel like my only constraint is time. It’s an unreal and
incredibly freeing and empowering feeling.
What I took away is the need to keep pushing myself
regularly. I need to seek a personal
record (PR) every day – whatever that might and however it might be
measured. If we don’t
push, we don’t grow. We don’t achieve. We don’t empower ourselves and
see our true strength from within, which is a much more impactful place to see
it from than from an external source. I
empowered myself to achieve and found this amazing place I wanted to perform at
from now on. How will you find that line
so you can cross it and empower.your.body?
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